The name is Anie... and I am a hidden hippie.
I am so grateful that you have decided to stop by my blog. Take a gander and let me know what you think, have any advice, anything you would like to see brought up... I'm all ears (well technically I'm all eyes haha).
I am assuming that since you decided to click on the about me page that you would like to know a little something about my life, so here it goes.
My life has always been about what others expect of me, what could I do to show that I was going to live a normal life. By normal I mean the kind of life that my parents have and that they expect me to have. I am expected to work a full time office job so that I can support myself. Fiancial security is very important to the parentals... and now that I am officially a "grown-up" (early twenties) it matters to me as well. It has taken me three years of working at a job that is completely disenchanting and that makes me want to gouge my own eyes out in the morning so that I'd have an excuse not to go, to discover that I can't do this anymore. I have to do something. So I have decided that the change that I'm going to make is to go back to school. I don't know if this is the right choice but any choice that changes my circumstance is a good one. I have always dreamed of being a writer and artist... but on the other end of the spectrum I also have wanted to study volcanos since I was a very small child. I think I was five when I saw the movie Volcano and that has been my dream ever since. I am working on finding a way to have it all. I'm thinking that all I can do is work on my writing and my art while I am in school. While I am in school I should get a clearer idea about whether or not volcanology is for me.
I am working towards living a healthier lifestyle. Not only to help me lose weight but to help clear my mind and body of all of the toxins that have accumulated over the past 20ish years. I feel that all of this extra weight and nastiness is blocking all of the positive energy that I wish to send in to the world and from recieving the positive energies of the earth and everything on it. (See... the hippie is coming out). I really feel the need to drastically cut down my meat consumption and completely eliminate dairy. My eventual goal is to be vegan. It is the only diet that flows well with my ideals and beliefs.
My life is in a state of constant turmoil. I am at war with myself. Who I really am is fighting who I was raised to be and I am losing. My souls light is slowly dying, pulling me into a depression that is so deep and bleak that all I can do is fight harder. I will make it to the other side. I will be who I really am, and love who I really am, and live the life that I am meant to live.
Come on this journey with me. I'm going to let my inner hippie shine, so you can too!!
Love and daisies